Every passing day is like the first. Watching you sleep warms me like the day's new light warming my body and soul. It's a rare pleasure becuase of the fact that you normally wake up first and jump on me smiling ear to ear whispering to me "wake up!". I love picking you up from work and listening to you describe you're day. So much enthusiasm it makes my heart skip a beat. Then we get to go home...forget about the day's hardships and everyone that caused them. We get to watch Kricket from under the table, do puzzles, make mosiacs, cook together and sit out on the patio to watch the sun set and talk until it's time to sleep.

I thank you for everything that you've done for me. I thank you for wanting me to come with you on this journey. I thank you for loving me just the way I am. I give you the rest of my earthly life to repay you in ways that I still cannot even fathom. I'll figure it out for you though.

Know that I will do anything for you. You are the only person that matters in this world or the next.

I can't wait for May! You always think of the coolest things to do!

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Live in your world, Become free in mine.

In the end, I truly hope you are happy. I hope you are always taken care of and that you never want for anything. As much as I wish I could be the one you long for when you are away, I know it is not my choice to make. You are forgiven, as I know you and understand why you do the things you do. My love for you will never die. More reassuring than the dawn's breaking light, more true than the north star, you can always rest assured that you will never be alone if you do not wish to be so. My arms will remain open to you until the end of time.

I apologize if my agony lends itself to say things which cause you trouble, however you are the oldest and most dear friend I have ever had, and losing you to him like this is more than just losing a lover, it is losing access to the one person in this world that means the most to me. He is nothing more than someone I should have never gotten involved with. A poor decision that cost me dearly in the end. If I never hear his name or see his face again as long as I live, it will be too soon.

For him, I wish the pain I have struggled to endure for almost a year now returned to him ten fold. I have turned the other cheek time and again and have been the better person through all this, however he will never be forgiven. While you may go through this life knowing that you changed someone's life for the better and showed them what it really meant to love and be loved, and have become the standard by which all others might be judged, he must live with the fact that there will always be someone out there whose life he irrevocably destroyed and that person will resent him and his namesake for all eternity. I have never hated anyone or anything until now. He may shrug this off as being of no concern to him, however that only proves his callousness and insincerity.

There will never be another that I love in the same way as I love you, Sarah. There will never be another that I loathe as much as I loathe the slime you are invoved with now.

Wishing you the best, Sarah, and him the worst.

Your husband and first true love,
Brian

There's a star in the sky that reminds me of you.
I step outside at night and the first thing I do
is look to the sky and wonder where you are
and if you think of me when you see our star.

I still love you.

thank you very much for your kind words!!!
greatly appreciated!!!!

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"On and on goes the clock; Unaware of the human desire to control time (as if it'd give a shit!)

Thanks for the comments.

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Bleh

thx for the comment!!!!

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"On and on goes the clock; Unaware of the human desire to control time (as if it'd give a shit!)

thx for the comment!!!!

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"On and on goes the clock; Unaware of the human desire to control time (as if it'd give a shit!)